Empty pavilion on Saturday
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oh, ladies!
So I’ve been busy the past few days, but I’ve now read up to Genesis 36. A LOT of things happen during Genesis 21-36:
justice, mercy, and love
Still sick, plus slightly incoherent. So forgive anything that may not make sense—it made sense in my head.
Day 4: Genesis 15-20
"Truth indeed came once into the world with her divine master, and was a perfect shape most glorious to look on; but when he ascended, and his apostles after him were laid asleep, then straight arose a wicked race of deceivers, who, as that story goes of the Egyptian Typhon with his conspirators, how they dealt with the good Osiris, took the virgin Truth, hewed her lovely form into a thousand pieces and scattered them to the four winds. From that time ever since, the sad friends of Truth, such as durst appear, imitating the careful search that Isis made for the mangled body of Osiris, went up and down gathering up limb by limb still as they could find them. We have not found them all, lords and commons, nor ever shall do, till her master’s second coming; he shall bring every joint and member, and shall mould them into an immortal feature of loveliness and perfection."
John Milton, Areopagitica.
Long quote is long. But Milton gives such a beautiful image of Truth, split into a thousand pieces and scattered all over the earth. God is the only one who knows the whole truth. As human beings, we can only strive to learn more, and so we have to keep our minds open.
- Really makes you think. Or atleast it made me think, check it out.
After my talk with Hahnsam about the enemy, and what he does in order to make us fall, this video seemed so relevant. Satan is the best manipulator; no matter how hard times get, don’t fall for his tricks.
sniffling through day 3
And by “sniffling,” I don’t mean crying. Unfortunately, I’m pretty sick right now, which does not bode well for me considering I have a weekend trip (which involves a lot of walking around and being outside) that I committed to. Hopefully, I’ll feel much better by Saturday morning.
Now we move onto day three: Genesis 11-14
the years gone by
To be completely honest, I think I’ve been in some kind of spiritual rut for the past four years. Four years. That sounds ridiculously long, especially at this age (four years is a fifth of my life!), but it’s the truth. I remember how I was so on fire for God when I was in my sophomore and junior years of high school. But looking back, I have to question if that fire was what I thought it was. I definitely did believe in God, but I think church became such a social part of my life that at the time, it was kind of the “cool” thing to be a really passionate Christian. So was I just playing the part, fueled by social constructs, or was it something genuine that eventually fizzled out? Only God knows.
For the past four years, I don’t know why, but I started distancing myself from God. It was a strange feeling because in my head, I understood and knew how I should be living, but I became so involved with the things of this world and was unwilling to let those things go. I lost sight of my priorities; the only one who gives me life is God. A couple days ago, for the first time in a long time, I prayed not only with words but with my heart. I felt such a burden come off my shoulders and was filled with a sense of peace and joy. I could feel God’s love come over me.
Even now, I can’t say I have zero worries about where my life is heading, but I’m doing my best to just let go and trust in God’s plan for me.
Now on to Day 2! Today is Genesis 6-10… Noah’s Ark (has anyone heard this story before? ;D)
one day at a time
New old project! In high school, sometime around late sophomore year, I decided I would give that Bible-in-a-year project a try. I think I got up to either 1 or 2 Chronicles before that fire fizzled out. So here I am, five years later, taking another shot. This time, I will stay committed, God help me.
Day 1: Genesis 1-5
joy
For the first time in a long time, I felt a genuine sense of joy.
Thank you, God. Sorry it took so long.
